It's okay Not to Know

Throughout my life, I have observed that many Christians are so future minded that they have a tendency to overlook the relevance of the present moment. Similarly, I have also noticed people who have a tendency to be detached from experiencing life as it is, due to a "know it all" mentality, where their ideas of life replace what may actually be real. I see these people because I was once this person, too.

It took lots of perceptive change, mentality growth, and ultimately, true life experience to actually see and know things as they are. I had to let go of my box where I crammed in my entire life experience into a few ideas and concepts I had learned and been taught throughout the years. I knew I had to let go of this box because my life was beginning to become bland and dull, as I reshaped every situation in my mind to fit a limited box of ideas and concepts of how life is, instead of allowing life to teach me the truth from moment to moment. There is great danger in this arrogant approach to life - one could miss out on truly living life in its vast richness in exchange for one's own narrow perspective on life. The reason why we tend to think this way is because we want secure from the insecurity of the unknown. Life is dangerous, full of surprises, twists and turns. When one begins to realize how much one actually doesn't know, then he/she is approaching wisdom.

Convincing your mind that you know it all brings you a false security, which one must constantly fight to have as life brings true to us exactly what we imagined as false and false exactly what we believed was true. If a man claims to know ultimate truth, then you can be sure that he is fighting for dear life to keep himself inside the comfort of his own mind's makeshift. This is exactly the battle which made my everyday life unbearable. I was fighting at every moment, trying to understand it as I believed it was, instead of accepting that I don't know life in its entirety, and I must be open to learning a totally new reality. I also began to see that I was outgrowing this box, and that as I let go of it, I began to learn what Life was actually telling me - "Open your mind, there is always far more to receive." Day by day, I let go of what I thought was true in exchange for seeing things new and fresh, as they are in the very moment. I began to discover that life is about seeing things as a child again - with humility, open to all possibilities, excited at the thrill of life and all its unknown depths.

This is the life of joy, rich with experience, where God is allowed to flow in and through the individual. This is the approach to life where the mind is completely focused on the present moment, on what it has to give, and on what one can give to life. Everything that you want can be drawn to you in this moment; and it is only in this moment that you can draw out of life what you desire. Why say, "One day, I'll be with God in heaven, and then things will be better"? God is here with you now! God is everywhere! You can go nowhere where He isn't. God doesn't want us to be caught up in to the future or the past to where we choose not to appreciate Life in all its gifts in this very moment - not even in the least bit! Imagine God graciously extending His hand to you holding the whole world as you overlook it in hopes for something else. Is there not enough beauty and things to be grateful for here? It is also appropriate to be humble towards life and realize that everyday there is more to learn - you will never know it all. This life has everything there is in it - God is here, you are here, others are here... Be present and appreciate the now.